Archive for the ‘work’ Category

sewing and snowing

January 17, 2018
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peacocks transform what is poison for others into beautiful colors in tail feathers – these creatures are a longstanding symbol for genderqueer/trans and oppressed others’ power – we bring/demonstrate/teach/share/explore beauty and love and embodied autonomy and capacity for change with All Beings

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tail

the quietude of this particular day is warm with birds and tracks, wool and time

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some part of me has always enjoyed the simplified symbol/cartoonish shape inspired by the anatomical heart…

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snow days are a quirky challenge, as i lose wages and gain space in other wei/ways – contemplative lifestyle + capitalism = strange blend

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made this scarf for someone – the very day after bemoaning to another artist/beloved that i was going to have to set aside artistic endeavors while i focus on sustaining my life with an overwhelming/lovely entrepreneurial endeavor – found me claiming space-time to sew lickety-split ; )

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surely allows time to draft a workshop proposal for an embodied learning summit focusing on racial justice :: draft of workshop title and  description below…

…all and any feedback welcome!

title:

Nama Rupa and the Master’s Tools

description:

We communicate with postures before we ever speak. We form and then we name. We learn movements in gravity before we learn words. We reform and we rename throughout life.

All oppression in some way is oppression of the body. Yoga is a practice of liberating the body and mind. With cultivated awareness, even right down during and within particular conditions that outwardly and inwardly limit thinking/believing and feeling/being and acting/doing, we grow and we change.

With Audre Lorde’s oft quoted quote, let’s reach down into our deep present-past – before words – into our original language – movement. Let’s unpack the Nama Rupa of self and politics – names and forms unfolding in consensus reality. Let’s discuss, meet between words, re-write ourselves whole with broken/repaired bodies, minds, and All…

…versions of this workshop are also being drafted into articles/essays for a couple of publication potentials…

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thanksgiven&taken

November 22, 2017

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for the Eno People

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for the Eno River

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for brokenhearted ignorance

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part Cherokee?

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Occaneechi Band of the Saponi Nation

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about NC Native Communities

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Triangle Native American Society

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Thanksgiving/Thanks-taking and Privilege

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Rethinking Thanksgiving

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Eno Indians

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Eno Tribe

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missives from the playground

March 14, 2017

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adult playground – in photos

child’s playground – in words

both true.

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how to make chalk hand-prints (best results when 6 – 8-yrs-old):

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get a friend to trace around your body sprawled on the asphalt/ground with chalk

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spend long time deliberately skrushing in various solid colors with huge sidewalk chalks; for clothing, hair, accoutrements, and skin of your silhouetted image [could take 20-40 minutes]

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lightly pat your open palms onto chalk colored self-portrait a couple three times

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place hands firmly in an unchalked spot on the asphalt

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leap up into a handstand – after a breath, plant feet again earthward one at a time and stand tall [takes 1-2 seconds]

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there they are. bright colored hand-prints clear and detectable for all passers-by

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i… i just. want…

January 23, 2017

imma be selfish for a min… for a time.

i want you to be free.

i want you to revel and reckon with these vids. they might not / might meet you where you are. may they be a balm for these times.

the longer vid speaks to me more directly than anything i’ve seen in these months – regarding maintaining my health, engaging social justice, and contemplating dharma and yoga.

long vid worth the time! this video is e.v.e.r.y.thing.

shorter vid setting up the longer one

and for good measure:

…it is selfish bias that i hope these morsels benefit you, that i shove meanings from furthest dark materials to deepest within, from my heartmindformspace to yours…

with love,

elliott

2017 how to

January 3, 2017

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how to be with the messy in-between of

frozen-with-fear and taking action

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to be with the messy in-between of

my intentions and making big mistakes

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be with the messy in-between of

making big mistakes and results of my actions

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how to be with the messy in-between of

results of my actions and my intent

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sync to sink

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or

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sink to sync

p.s.

emergence

December 14, 2016

dangerous opportunity

opportune danger

crisis

demise

emergence

emergency

crisis

emerging demise

demising mergence

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something familiar and comfortable must be cast off in order to

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act

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sage

savage

rage

ravage

cage

cabbage

cave

aged

average

beige

baggage

dazed

damage

lame

lament

maim

moment

name

save

nave

knave

lave

wave

tame

came

blame

flame

foment

comment

commend

ferment

American linguistic blunders

 

touching ground

November 18, 2016

yeh, we are moving upstream

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against a wave of thousands of years of human tribalism/othering,

as is our animal nature.

still and all, we are the same species.

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scissors without rulers

May 11, 2016

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  • surprises, discoveries

a nine patch can be mussed with, and is not necessarily the weakest launch point for a design. however, i wanna push that building block beginning further off the map.

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  • satisfactions

scissor cutting with no mat underneath is risky but feels more embodied.

i like the backside more than the top; this is a tendency of mine.

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  • dissatisfactions

i had 2 fabric bleeds happen for the first time significantly. i love the possibility and examples i’ve seen of fabric bleeds. alas, mine are not attractive (satisfying) herein.

DSCN4667i went for the black patterned fabric to add that contrast new babe’s eyes can enjoy and benefit from. the fabric range looks better folded up and fresh, not so great once in the quilt itself. drat.

when buying fabrics from discount and scrap bins, it can suck to later need more of one or two that are unobtainable…

  • what’s next

playing rather more intentionally with accidental fabric bleeds! ha. intentional playing for more accidents… hmmm

noting, admitting, exploring the factual territory that manifesting a quilt for commission/income is a different beast – it feels different in my calendar, in my bones and breaths, in the process. it is in turns subtle and loud – this difference. i’ve another quilt due in the early fall. i’m curious to witness the process again, seeding in and sustaining the creative opportunity and constraints.

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gratitude quilt for loving lifesaving friend

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quilt top, center detail (i could only hang this sideways… the puckering is not actually that bad when flat…)

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older bits and pieces came together with new patches attractively, at least for my eyes.

  • satisfactions

this was another supreme experience of improv for me. i built this from the center out, quite surprised with what i was finding myself choosing to put in where and when. that kind of creative happening is simply deeply satisfying.

  • dissatisfactions

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i fell again for the “comforter” technique of tying versus stitched “quilting.” and again, the idea seems simple and lovely, and then shreds my fingers and takes so long. oh, modernity… and practicing patience.

 

  • what’s next

…approaching a quilt top as if it were a quilt back! i’ll see if that shakes something loose in my mind space whilst breathing and creating…

precise and wild – this nurtured nature of us

August 5, 2015

i am learning/perceiving/receiving

more and more

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my gifts

are.

what i have to creatively offer

our whirrld

to possibly relieve any

one being

or maybe many

of some

any

suffering

any confusion

…some confusions.

as i become clearer

about

my selfhood

and what i might/can contribute,

this gain in understanding/perception/learning

is matched.

this wildness of me

is matched

precisely

proportionately

with understanding

that i will never

fulfill such dynamic exchange

of potentiality.

personal, institutional, and cultural/social systems

abounding

will  never

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fully express

and embody

and engage

my fullest potential.

i’m becoming okay with this/that.

i see

us all

precise and wild.

i see so many beloveds

and unknowns

whether with

resonant or radically opposing

views of politic/health/beliefs/etc

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similarly

in relationship

with being

such to sacrifice

that freedom for this boned limbed lunged heartmindbody

this freedom for that identity

that expansiveness for this love

this ideal for that humbleness

that truth for this gratitude

no wrongs no rights

i dive into investigating disability

and public assistance

and find

i am in a middle

haha

a place way

of neither

sinking nor swimming

… yet.

it is a privileged

terrifying

blessed

confusing

lucky

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unearned

identity-annihilating

affirming-of-transformation

unsustainable

undeniable-change

place

between

who is ill?

the system?

me?

both?

neither?

i glean any knowledges with this process

so to serve

and share

and relieve sufferings

of others!

hhhuuhhhh.

at the least, that.

go ahead.

chuckle.

laugh.

this can also be known as

a growing/evolution

past 40

into 40-something.

that is real.

that is happening for me this month.

…an agendered asexual genderqueer genderfuck approaching “menopause” is a thing.

with other “symptoms”

of other corporeal and subtle

body systems

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to boot…

i simply wish

relationship

upon

us each and all

…that we lean into relationship

with our own and others’ selves, beliefs, politics,

and ask

what does this/that depend on?

what does this thought/belief depend on?

what does that feeling depend on?

what do i depend on?

you!?

and what do you depend on lovie?!

~all/any credit for current conditions of perceived ground/brilliant sanity, knowing there isn’t any, and feeling terrifyingly exhilarated with such knowledge is interdependent upon my friend’s new book ~ xoxo

travel space-time

April 19, 2015

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